She didn’t take a walk
Because society will talk
Now it’s cool to walk away
But after now everything stays the same
Keeping up appearances
With less utterances
The cover up for a Narcissist
but why not, else she’s labeled Egotistic
What will the church say?
I can’t keep this abuse at bay
How would society see me?
The stigma would never free me.
I’m gonna sit right here and take the blow
Cos going would cost me so much, I would never grow.
My ministry would decline
Though my mind already reclined
But how I do I flip this page
I live daily in cage
My soul is enraged
My body’s enslaved
I call a sister on the church yellow page
She says stay, you just have to manage
The church tells me to ‘hush’
but it’s not them whose being crushed
I’m losing my mind
They say cast and bind
Pastor says stay, it’s for better, for worse
I’m beaten black and blue without remorse
Nobody must know this,
Raise ur head, smile and never hiss
Look at your children, you can’t leave them behind
My will is bedridden, though I said I do, but I wanna rewind.
Or I had rather not
I would just die in this rot
Written by Adebola Adedugba,
April, 2022. In loving memory of Osinachi
Adebola Adedugba 